It is Wednesday, March 9, 2016. Up all night once again. Have a bad problem with drug abuse. I could not pay my apartment rent this month. Facing eviction. Money went to buy drugs once again. I pray for it to stop closing in on me. I have fought this for the past three months of heavy use. It is getting worse and I want to stop, but I am so weak to fight it. I keep saying to myself this is the last time, but its not. The addiction is so strong and I am so weak. It is killing me both physically and mentally. I MUST STOP AND NOT GO BACK. I know this is not what God wants for me. Please pray that I can fight this and defeat this evil way of life. Please don't look down on me for what I have become. I am very ashamed of myself and very deeply depressed. Doctors are not the answer to help me. Our Lord is my only hope. Your prayers would be very helpful. Thank you and God bless you all.